32 Weeks

To my unborn little girl.

I have no idea how we're going to adapt to having 3 children, let alone 3 GIRLS, but your sisters are excited to meet you. Your daddy thinks being a father of all girls is the best and like I've been before every one of my kids was born - I'm uncertain.

I don't know if the labor will be good, hard, long, early, late. 

I don't know if nursing will end in tears, impossible, exhausting, a chore, beautiful.

I don't know how you'll sleep, if I'll sleep, where we'll sleep (things on the home front are up in the air right now).

I don't know if you'll be easy, hard, cry lots, smile.

I don't know if you'll prefer daddy or mummy, or even your sisters, if you'll be happy to go to others, a home body.

I don't know if you'll have lots of hair, no hair, curly, straight, dark, light.

I don't know if you'll look like me, your dad, Mia, Kiki, your grandparents.

I don't know if post-partum will be easy, hard, exhausting, sad, happy, dark, light.

But I do know that you were meant to be ours.

You were determined to come to our family and because of that determination, we will be infinitely blessed by your presence. I hope that doesn't mean that life will hard for you, or us, but I know that because of you, I'm learning to trust in the Lord and His plans, timing and greater understanding.

We weren't "supposed" to have another baby for a while. I was on birth control and not mentally prepared for the sickness of pregnancy. We had plans to try some Asian lady's suggestions to have a boy in the hopes that it would be an easier pregnancy on me when we were ready and wait until I was more secure with work.

Work's been a crazy roller coaster for the last 6 months. Job changes, boss changes, department changes. We got a few health scares regarding you a couple of months ago. My own family life has had some crazy ups and downs and this pregnancy has been rough. Those first 20+ weeks were awful but I survived. The last 4 weeks have been riddled with contractions, blood work, more sickness and aches and pains - all part of a regular pregnancy for me.

But you.

You've kept moving, you let me know you're there and make me think that despite what happens even if you plan, things will be okay.

So despite what I don't know, I do know this.

We can't wait to meet you, love you and make you ours.

See you soon xox

-Mama

Pics and Sisterly Love

Lucky for me phones have cameras. I need to post these so I know the day they happened and a small caption in case I forget.

Had a girl's day out with my mum, sister and cousin on July 3rd. Kiona fell asleep with her sunglasses on

One of my last pictures of me pregnant

Me and my baby her first night on earth

Her full head of straight, black hair. I hope it doesn't fall out

My baby at 1 day old

Mia at 4 days old - she already has quite a few eyelashes so I think she's going to have long eyelashes like her sister. We thank my dad for that :)

Maybe a week ago? She has really long fingers and toes like her mummy but this photo reminds me that newborns have a natural instinct to grab people's hands and I like to think that my baby knows that I'm her mummy that's why she does it

My baby at 6 days old...smirking in her sleep

Kiona LOOOOOVES her sister. She is always asking where she is, if she can kiss her, if she can feed her, if she can change her....and if she can cuddle/strangle her. Picture taken of Mia at 8 days old

Kiona did not want her father cramping her style - I love hers and Mia's faces in the top picture. Kiona loves to kiss her sister and I think Mia secretly loves being man handled by her sister

Favorite picture of my girls so far - especially Mia. I love that the one smile she made was when her sister gave her a kiss - she is genuinely happy about the sisterly love

Speaking of sisterly love - I love my sister Dayna. Here is the most awesome baby shower set-up done a few weeks before I had Mia. It was an outdoor party with good food, drinks and company. My kind of party